First day of my life

現在的心情好承重

看著身邊的人一個一個接著走

談的來的朋友也沒幾個了

還以為我早以習慣

誰知還是有點受到影響

Having to attend privatize school since young, and hanging out with all the foreigners especially the Indonesians.

 

I thought I would have gotten used to seeing my friends leaving for other countries to further their education or going back to their respective countries. 

But who knows seeing friends here leave for other schools or graduate, and realizing that friends that I can really connect and have fun with is getting lesser everyday.

I am affected in one way or another.

I used to tell people that friends come and go and that I've long gotten used to it and it wouldn't affect me.

But seem like it still does. 

I remembered when I was in secondary school, sec 1 I had this good friend Nonglak from Thailand, she is the cutest and most sincere girl I have ever seen. She went back Thailand, after occasional phone calls we lost contact ever since then.

And there was Andrew, he left and went back to Indonesia 3 years back but thankfully we are still in contact. The last time I saw him was probably a year and a half back, but there will still be messages or calls from him and thank god for the creator of MSN.

Du li, he transferred and moved out. 

Although he is only about an hour and half away from me. 

But its kinda weird since we used to have lunch, dinner together everyday. 

Its just different without someone treating me dinner and go out with me whenever I feel like and no one to kill time with during lessons.

And

No one to play pool with anymore! even though he suck at it.

and

starbucks

and

playground

Although I've made new friends but its just different

and

not to forget the friends I have to leave behind when I came over

Fiona

Jelyn 

Darius

Taken a long time back, when my hair was still short and spiky

Miki

07, nearing chinese new year

Even having the sweetest dreams I had in along time =D 

couldn't seem to

stop me from feeling shitty

I hate my life

But on the contrast if friends don't leave how can I find better ones

HAHA

similarly for boyfriends

!

I am so mean

I know